Once in a while you get shown the light in the strangest of places if you look at it right (Jerry Garcia). The Webster dictionary sayz that clarity is the state of seeing clearly. I usually achieve clarity in those moments of startling insight when I am able to shift my perspective by viewing a situation in a new light....I empathize Terry, but you still have no right to behave the way that you did the other day. I never lied to you regarding Jesse, and even though you have strong oppinions regarding my choices, it still does not give you the right to bereft me of peace and happiness in my own choices.....It is my heart....I can give it to whom ever I choose..."Just trying to be supportive"...Really????Well there are two ways of spreading light: to either be the candle or the mirror that reflects it! (Edith Wharton). Your neither my candle nor my mirror! FYI-Your delivery SUCKS! And I will not engage in the blame game.
Support is holding up from underneath. You support someone when you WILLINGLY step forward to strengthen, energize and help her through a difficult time....Every person creates his or her own reality. Authorship of my life is one of my absolute rights and I am not one of those people denying the fact that I have the ability to script the life I desire (if I can only convince the other participant to jump in-we would be well on our way). I am painfully aware of the fact that I have to accept the consequences of every deed, word, and thought throughout my lifetime. I take responsibility, which means I admit my accountabi8lity and acknowledge my influence and role in the circumstances in which I now find myself. Did I make the wrong choice? Only I can determine that! I am answerable for my own behavior and I fully accept any consequences created by my actions..Ur a lawyer, you should know all about this! Although I take responsibility, responsibility is not blame, and understnding the difference between the two is crucial to learning MY LESSONS!! I release All!!! I fully am aware that release is just the simple act of letting go. There are times, like right now, when I take full responsibility for the progression, or lack of progression of a relationship, and there are time, like now, when I need to just let go and walk away.....I need to release this situation in order to save my energy for more important battles.
I am learning the lesson of release as I begin to choose it as a conscious act rather than a passive means to hide from responsibility.....I AM SORRY....Never meant to hurt you by my choices that have proven to be unbeneficial to you or for you.....FYI..I have courage! I think it takes courage to embrace the idea that what I make of my life is up to me and to actually do what I need to do. I also believe that courage is learned in the moment that one takes a leap of faith and take action.
Sometimes my fear can be nameless, even though I am pretty sure I will not injure myself, and failure isn't a real concern. I suppose I am simply afraid in the way that humans often are when they stand poised to jump, metaphorically or literally into the unknown. But my fear, real or imagined, only impedes me at times.
I am aware that you think my decisions were based on fear of the unknown of us, but what you do not realize is that, it was not fear that supported my decision to release you, but courage!!
On another note,,I miss Jesse, even though I see them almost daily, sometimes I do not actually see them!!!!
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